Inside the Life of Jessi Johanna - Innocent by Day/Naughty by Night

I really need a hot muscular guy to give me a nice long back massage with oil. Its so hot and sweaty here in Austin.  Honestly, I can't think of heat like this without wanting to see hot tan sweaty bodies with oil on the water.... ok maybe I'm just horny!!! haha

I've been kinda sexting a hot guy friend of mine that's on again off again single with some chick I don't know. I just can't help myself - he's so fucking hot! Tall, Tan, muscular, beautiful teeth and a nice big 10inch cock that's nice and thick.... so when I invited him over Saturday night and we fucked like monkeys - it just had to happen again yesterday too. Since then, I'm just this great big ball of horny lol. Constantly wet and excited. Guess that means I'll be on cam a bit more. 

There's so much going on in my life right now. I feel like I could write a book. I'm thinking about hosting this blog on my site so that maybe I'll add to it more often. I did figure out hot to tweet pix for you guys. So please be sure to check out my twitter. I know, I'm a bit behind on the times about that I guess. lol. It always seemed silly to me that anyone would want to know what anyone else is doing 24/7 but now that I've learned to send pix etc maybe I'll get more into it. I don't want twitter to just seem like spam. I also looked into changing my blog to an application so I could just launch a program and add to it when I have it open. Sometimes I'm just bad about remembering to visit a site to do stuff. 

So enough about that. I'm also in the process of buying a house that's being built. The house I live in now is a rental and I have to move around August because the owner is wanting to sell it and I'm not really interested in buying the house I'm in. I don't like it enough to do that. Its a fine house but its a bit too big for me and not a house I'd want to buy. I have an on again off again roommate. She has a boyfriend that she ends up breaking up with every other month or so... lol... when they're together she's pretty much living with him - when they break up she's here. She knows what I do for a living but I don't work when she's home and awake most of the time. I think she's a little uncomfortable with it but doesn't really mind - lol if she did guess she could move out. She's a SUPER shy person and not into being involved with me or work at all - sorry to dissapoint all of you. 

Be sure to check out my "packages" that contribute to my house fund. There's only a couple weeks left in my "chipin" setup to meet my goal. If I meet my goal I'm going to take my top contributors and put them in a raffle to meet me. No, not to hook up with me - granted if you're hot I just might put a move on you lol - but no that's not the goal. The packages are actually really sweet deals and a great way to get a ton of stuff for a really good price. I'm even offering my cell # in one of them. 

All of this "house buying" stuff is quite stressful. Good thing for me though that when I'm stressed, I'm generally pretty horny. Seriously, nothing is better to releave some stress than a nice big orgasm or laughing at a funny humiliating Sub... lol I think I have the best "job" in the world for dealing with stress. After a couple of orgasms all of my problems really just melt away. You'll probably have a good chance at catching me while all of this is going on. Win/win huh?!.... lol 

Another thing about the house stuff, I'm really not spending money on myself for sexy/pretty things or anything nice for myself so seriously, anyone that wants to send a sweet gift my way, you have no idea how much that will cheer me up. Of course you'll get a nice picture of me with your gift! Gotta send a sweet thank you to such a generous person!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I drove from Texas to Alabama. Thank god that is over with. lol. I loved visiting with family. The one thing about having a southern family though - they're constantly trying to feed you. I guess they think I'm starving - um yeah, not even close to starving. We had everything you can think of and omg soooo many deserts. I'm glad I'm back home in Texas because I'd be the size of a house if I allowed them to shove so much food in my face. Plus, around my family, I'm Little Miss Innocent. Now, I'm back home to my naughty self. I sure did miss My vibrator lol. 

Now that its colder I'll probably be online more. I don't like going out when its cold. So, this means it will be easier for everyone to play with me and honestly I can't think of a better way to spend my time. Not to mention my fun little fetish guys - haha "little" there sure are a strange amount of tiny pecker guys that like to show them off to me too.  I'm sure my many subbies missed Me too. I might have a surprise coming up for shows - we'll see. Don't ask - I won't tell you. 

My laptop died the other day too without any hope of repair. Its been a good laptop and I'm honestly pretty rough on laptops. I've been doing shows on my desktop. Its a great desktop but its just not mobile. I miss that. So, thanks to a special someone (will leave anonomous) I got a new one today! If you're reading this you know who you are - so thanks!! I'm setting it up as I'm typing this on my desktop. 

I guess I'll go tinker with my new laptop now and I hope to see you soon! xoxox www.jessijohanna.com

I'm not one that constantly watches youtube but a friend of mine showed me something that I just can't stop watching. I used to live in Huntsville, Alabama so naturally when a friend of mine saw this clip she couldn't help but send me the link. Its too funny for words. I think its funnier because its real - not staged.

Once you've seen that - you have to watch this one. Its even better.

I think I laughed so hard I had soda coming out of my nose. I have watched it probably 5 times and its still funny every time.

Hope it makes you laugh too!

I must add that the part of Huntsville I lived in was nothing like this area! lol As if people from Alabama don't have a hard enough time overcoming the stigma already of people's idea of Alabama.

So my little yellow mustang is on life support. I've really been using it as a dog car for Hannah. She really doesn't fit well in it anyways. I've had this car for 10 years though! I'm going to miss it. Its time though. I need a new car. I'm hopefully going to buy one this weekend. I really hate depleting my savings completely for a down payment but in order to get the monthly payment I can afford - looks like that's what I'm going to do. I know exactly what vehicle I want but I need a car NOW! lol. I can't really drive my car for more than 2 miles without worrying. I have nice friends and neighbors that I go shopping with etc so I can carpool and so stuff with - but poor Hannah is suffering. No more trips to the lake at the moment. So, hense the car fund specials I have this weekend. I can't think of a more fun way to make some money for my car lol!  Its pretty rare for me to do such crazy specials like I'm doing so its kind of a win/win for everyone. My goal is to make my double amount for the week and put that with my down payment. 

For any of you out there curious as to what I want: I want a honda element. Its the perfect Hannah car. And well, I had a mustang for 10 years - I'm sure  I'll have this one for as long. If I get it I'll take a picture and post it on my blog.

Thank you in advance to all of you out there this week helping me out! You all are awesome! 

Special dates 7/15-7/17

Specials
#1 - 15min cam/audio
& video $55
#2 - 20min cam/audio
& 2 videos $100
#3 Any 6 videos $100

Wow, I just realized that my last post on my beautiful chocolate lab was the day I first got her. Its been about a year now and she's so wonderful! I love her so much. She's not crazy, lol, didn't really chew anything - not like most dogs do when they're growing but I did constantly spoil her with raw bones from a specialty store and TONS of chew toys. I'm looking at my livingroom and she probably has about 10 strewn across my floor. Her favorite toy is an empty bottle. Whenever I have a 20oz soda or water - she sits beside me looking up just waiting for me to finish it. lol.

She's the typical lab as far as how smart she is and how easy to train she was. She'll still learn things when I try to teach her something. 

Its so freaking hot here in Texas though - she doesn't really like being outside for very long unless she's swimming. She LOVES to swim. I take her every weekend with some friends and their dogs to one of the local parks. Its a great park, people can bike there and swim and walk their dogs. Somehow we always manage to get lost at this park though. We go almost every weekend but if we manage to test out a new trail it takes us an extra hour to figure out how to get back. Its nice and shaded though so that's good. 

Anyway, was just doing a quick update because I feel so embarrassed that I haven't shared Hannah with the world! She's awesome and everyone is totally missing out lol! 

So the other night I waited up til 6am (I usually have a habit of staying up til 4...I have to stop doing that) and went down to the AT&T store to see if the mass histeria would be true about the Iphone4. I thought "eh, if I get there this early I'll know if they're going to just have the amount for preorder or if they'll have a handful more. Sure enough - they said they probably didn't even get in the amount they needed to fill their preorders. Some of you know I'm sure that my current phone (3g iphone) took a little bath with me a few months ago. I did the right steps and salvaged it....well sort of. Its very peculiar. If it goes into sleep mode it won't come out - its like rip van winkle...so I turned that function off - which solves the problem but also means it dies a lot faster. If by chance my phone does die, then when I charge it - whatever application I chose to go to - normally phone or txt and then press the home button to get out of it - it takes a screen shot....EVERY TIME!!! So I have about 100 screenshots of who I'm on the phone with or the txt that I'm in the middle of. Crazy huh - its not the worst thing that could happen because thankfully I wasn't in a game. Being in the txt/call area at least I can contact people and they can contact me. Still, its quite annoying. Lately my phone has started playing its own games too. Either that or I have a ghost. I'll be sitting then suddenly my phone is playing tetris by itself. Or soduku - I must say my phone is much better at it by itself than it is with me.... .sooo.... needless to say a few months ago I was about to get a 3gs - then I saw that the new iphone was going to come out. I've been waiting ever sense with this nutjob of a phone. *sigh* Its ok - my phone has personality! Not everyone's phone is quite so interesting.

I think I want the Iphone 4 to shoot dirty videos in random places.... just imagine where I can go with a phone like that! God I swear if I ever lose that thing I'm in so much trouble. Someone will inherit one dirty freaking phone. lol. 

Ok, well its Friday night and I probably should start getting ready to go out. I'm starving!!!! 

So at the moment, Im sitting in my pj's watching my favorite show "Trueblood". I totally have a thing for vampires, always have. I really do like the back of my neck bitten when I'm getting fucked too. Not the whole time and not blood piercing - but you know, spine tingling fun that makes your toes curl. I'm not sure who is hotter, Bill, Eric or Jessica. 

I went on an actual date this weekend too. Nothing big, just dinner and a movie. Too bad the movie sucked. We went to see "The Goods". I really like Jeremy Piven and I'm pretty relaxed when it comes to movies. This was just a poorly written script. I can enjoy a good cheese fest every now and then but this was like moldy cheez wizz. I think part of me is a movie addict. I probably on average see 1 movie a week. Heck, I'll go to the movies even when I'm the only one that wants to see a movie.  Just me, the movie, soda and a tub of pop corn! Anyway, the date was pretty innocent. No hanky panky. None of my guy friends know I'm a bad girl. I plan to keep it that way too.  haha everyone thinks I'm innocent. Well, a few of my girlfriends do - but its still hush hush!

On a different note, I finally have dates on Esoterick's visit! I'm so excited! I can't wait to have some fun with her. She's a super kinky girl and I have a feeling she's going to teach me a thing or two. She'll be flying in September 1st and going home September 7th. She does all sorts of things and I honestly didn't think I would be nervous about being with a girl. I have to admit, I'm a little nervous. She uses big toys, can do anal and thats on the tame side of her dirty self. Well, I'll update again soon! xoxoxo

I've had a busy week. Hannah is awesome. She's using the doggy door, sits, uses her crate and I think I've taught her Duck - like as in her stuffed toy duck. Dummy hits her head on everything and digs the water out of her bowl. Oh well. She seems to be letting me sleep now. At first she was waking me up at crazy times. She doesn't really bark or whine but she does romp and play.

I've been working on redoing my site and possibly doing another one. I like how my site is just fine - there are just certain things about it. Though I'm sure I'll be wanting to redo it all together come January. I'm thinking of signing up for some web development classes. I like what I know so far just fine but I get bored and constantly feel like I want to learn stuff. There's so many things I'd love to know how to do but don't know how. Plus, I like school so why not.

On another note, well kinda a side note - Hannah's first night here she chewed my cord on my webcam so I had to get a new one. I just bought the same kind I already had but when I did - it had suggestions on cam software. So, I downloaded skype. Yeah I know, I've been very anti skype in the past. I'd had it once before and it completely locked up my computer everytime it came on. This was a long time ago and it was on my mac. Now, I've downloaded it again - I haven't tried it other than trying it out with Jen when I was in ny. It wasn't the greatest on our end but guys seem to like it and logitech swears by it - so here I am giving it another shot. Logitech also has its own cam software too, but again I haven't tried it aside from testing it out with a friend. It seemed amazing but I think it will be easiest when its my cam only. Cam2cam is always fun and I hope it ends up working that way but I think it might conflicting - like I think both people will need a logitech cam. We'll see. 

I went shopping today too. I got 2 really cute VS bras and a nighty - its a little girlier than my tastes but I have a certain sissy boy that I think is going to love it! Oh and this super hot 2 peice schoolgirl set. I've had schoolgirl stuff before but this is like red/plaid and totally hot and slutty looking. I plan on taking some pix soon. I also have this new harness for my massive 12 inch dildo but the idiots at the store didn't take the sensor off. I really don't want to take it back but I honestly don't know how to take the sucker off. Too bad I don't have one of my bitches here lol sounds like a perfect task.

Well, its late so I'm gonna catch some sleep. Check back soon.

It seems like all summer, I've been watching EVERYONE else's dogs.... Well today, I drove to the middle of nowhere TX and picked up the cutest Chocolate Lab pup. She's 7 1/2 weeks old and weighs about 10lbs. I'm not 100% on the name but so far, I'm leaning toward Hannah. So, I think I'm going to spend the weekend playing with her. At the moment, I'm watching 2 other dogs too. One is a 8yr old HUGE lab mix thats just old and lazy... and the other is a 6month old blue heeler mix... So far the blue heeler is trying to heard "hannah" but looks like hannah can handle her own. 

Well, I'm off to play with my pup. I'll be around soon. xoxoxo

Well so much has happened since my last post. One major thing was I went to visit my friend Jen in NY. We played around on and off cam and after 3 days of fucking each other silly and torturing her poor bf from not letting him join.... he finally got to spend the last 2 days of my trip fucking the both of us. It was so much fun. We did a little bit of everything licking pussies, sharing toys, I even fucked her ass. It was great. Never done that to a girl before. Haha. Her boyfriend I can say could die a happy man now. I have to say I miss having so much sex all of the time like that. It was great.

Since then, its 105 on average here so not a lot of going out. An hour here or there. I do a bit more during the morning and late afternoons. I've been dog sitting someone's dogs so far all summer. I've had different dogs at different times and its so nice to play fetch and have a companion around the house. I think I want one of my own. After searching and searching thru breeds etc. I think I've finally found one.... unlucky me - very few are around and looks like its going to be a pretty penny. Oh well, I hope to have her for a long time. Yes I said her.... sorry but boy dog penis creeps me out. My mom and dad have one and its so creepy just sitting there with his wang hanging out. Ew.

This is the breed of dog I want. I found a youtube video...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWiGHfjp99A   I don't know who's dog this is but at the moment I'm very jealous!

I want to try to be better about keeping a blog. I hate the thumblogger layout but oh well. I'll post when I can.

I've been having a lot of fun with my subby boys! Little wimps are so much fun. They make me laugh. The other night = I think it was Friday, I was out with friends. I had one of my guys funding our drinks for the night - I was showing them all of the stuff he was saying and how pathetic he was. lol it was sooo funny. I had some friends snap some pictures of us out enjoying his contributions and us laughing at the stupid shit he was saying. I want to finish my sub area on my site. I just always find something more entertaining to do.

Well hope to post again soon. xoxoxo

I know that I just bought a few toys... but just like a kid in the candy store. I still want more. Maybe I'm a nympho! LMAO!!! There are things that I guess I just wish I had or that I wish I could see. Like there is this toy that I saw online (I'll have to find the link) that works both ways ---- perfect for a camgirl. Basically, what happens is, there's a fleshlight thing (for those of you who aren't familiar - it looks like a pussy shoved into a flashlight) and a dildo and the dildo fucks the girl at the rate that the guy fucks the fleshlight!!!! Cool huh - talk about cyber sex.

So, I found this website and I'm going to make a wishlist. Maybe I'll get some goodies. After spending $500 on toys etc just the other day - I'm going to rely on the kindness of others for my fun :

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So much has been going on lately. One thing is I got this new thing for my computer. Its really neat. Its one of those pen things for the computer that you use in photoshop. Let me tell you that is one heck of a learning curve there. lol

For all of you that have been concerned about my friend - she's doing great and is so happy with her new boobs. Shes a small C and they look great on her. She's a bit paranoid - she's just that kind of person. Constantly thinking every movement is going to cause a blood clot to go to her brain lol. I think she's getting over that.

Last week I went crazy at the adult store too. I'd just randomly got my tax return back. I wasn't expecting it so soon. So I drove to Dreamers in downtown Austin with the intention of buying a new dildo for my strapon. I wanted one that was lifelike. I thiink I accomplished that. Only thing is - I went a little nuts. I ended up spending 150 in the toystore - just in toys. 2 glass dildos and a new dick for my strapon. Well, next thing you know I'm at La Rouge next door. That place is amazing. Its like a HUGE store for pornstars and strippers. They had probably 1000 different pair of shoes. Two huge rooms of clothes. I still have things I haven't taken out of its package yet. I spent about 350 in there. Man, fucking is expensive lol.

I had a blast. I bought a few outfits, a choker and earrings, and 3 pair of shoes. I tell you what.... walking in stipper shoes is a skill in its own. Lol they may look sexy on cam but I look rediculous walking in these things lol. Its so fun. I've got to where I'll put them on for the fun of it and strutt around the house like I'm a sexy pimp.... I'll be walking all cool and like "yeah, I'm ready to get fucked up against a poll" next thing you know, I'm flat on my ass thanking god that I didn't break my ankle. lol Really funny shit!!!

As for the toys, my favorite type of toy is glass. I don't have to worry about getting irritated and they're easy to clean. Anyone that's had a show with me knows I can be a messy girl. The two glass ones I got are very similar. Both are clear and pink. I promise they are very different. one is smaller with a crook (love the crook btw) and has a loop at the end where a little vibrator goes in very very nice. The other looks like some sort of torturing divice they'd use in the 1700 to kill witches.... or at least show them a good time. lol. Its big/thick and spikey. Its great!!! I've never had an orgasm make my eyes go black before - I was walking a little bowlegged for a while though - I doubt I'll be able to do that many times in a day lol.

If you wanna see fullsize pix of my new goodies check out my site. www.jessijohanna.com

I know its been a few days since my last post. I've been a pretty busy girl. Especially with taking care of my friend with the new boobies. They're actually a bit bigger looking than I'd expected. She was feeling pretty good by the weekend so she played photographer for me. LOL she even got me naked in the back yard.

I've actually been doing a good bit of reading this weekend. Its a bit different being an independent camgirl. Its not like Imlive where you just log on and people flood to you. One way that's good but on the other its bad. Guys are in and out really quick and its not like you feel connected and its a bit frustrating cause you start enjoying the playtime and then poof - they're gone. I end up finishing off cam a lot when I'm on there. I'm rarely on that site because of that. Plus they only let you keep 30% and the guys get charged more.... lose/lose for everyone but imlive. Being independent you just end up having to market yourself. Sure, www.realgirlsoncam.com does its own marketing some but its not the same.... We get to keep more of our money... like 70+% I really don't remember what it is.

Sorry, lol - got a little side tracked. My drawing is coming along pretty good too so far. My friend dressed me up and took some pix of me drawing too. After seeing them - it really made me think naughty thoughts. I love feeling like a tease.... like I could be innocently drawing my pic and someone could be "inquiring" about my "drawing" lol yeah right..... I'm sure that's what would be on his mind..... lol

Ok, its late and I'm tired. I'll write back later when I'm not so tired. Hope you liked the pix

Busy day behind and ahead of me. I've been reading up on all of the blogging advise. Wow... lots of advise lol. I think I'm wanting something different out of my blog so - who knows. Its a a little after midnight here and I've got to be up in 6 hours. One of my good friends is getting a set of new boobies in the morning lol. I'm going to take care of her while she's "out of it". I don't typically do mornings - in fact, I hate mornings. Thats what friends are for I suppose.

Not real sure that I agree with her decision on size but hey, its her body not mine. She's about 5ft tall - yep even shorter than I am if you can believe it. She's small but has a nice ass. She's only getting 180cc's though. To me, if I were going to have surgery - I'd have "surgery" give me some big ol' titties if I'm going under the knife.

She's worried about what her family might say or the people who work with her. Silly her though, lol, she told the girls at her office though. If she's going to tell them... she may as well make them noticable. She's a sweet girl though. Quite the hottie too.

We were out one night a couple of weekends ago and the got to feeling around on my titties and before you know it we're making out in the bathroom. Nice huh!!! We haven't done anything physical since then though. We've hung out and I've talked about being bi and the girls I've been with. She hasn't openly come on to me since that night though. Not sure if she's shy or if its a friend thing. I don't want to feel like I'm being pushy. She knows that I'm a camgirl - so I don't want her to feel pressured. I would love to play with her though. We both complain about being under sexed. Too bad she'll be hurting and drugged up - we could have some fun lol!

What do you think? Should I put the moves on her once she's better or wait for her? I don't really have a 3rd party to initiate stuff and I don't really want a penis in the room with us. I think I'd like to be all pussy with her. Who knows, maybe she reads my blogs That would be hot. Well off to bed. nite nite

Sometimes A-D-D gets the best of me. No, I've never been diagnosed with A-D-D and I don't know that I have it but its definitely hard for me to focus sometimes. Like at the moment, I can't type the right letters to save my life. About every 5 words, I'm typing a letter wrong and have to hit the backspace button. Maybe, its understimulation.

I think A-D-D reers its ugly head in all sorts of places. Like sex or even masturbation. I can be having completely amazing sex. Yet, my mind is still wondering around thinking of other naughyty things I could be doing. Roleplaying is perfect, its hot - doesn't necessarily have to have multiple partners either. I wonder if that's why I fantasize about orgies or girls so often. Seems like when I'm stimulated by something different or perhaps a 3some - I'm pretty happy to focus at the task at hand.

There are times in one of my shows, I'll be in a roleplay. These are definitely my favorite. I can be completely in character and my mind and body are perfectly happy! Who knows, maybe its normal to think about all sorts of sexy things when you're playing with yourself or when you're having sex. Just being there and touching or penetrating is amazing but something about dreaming of things you may not actually do or have the opportunity to do - I guess its just better to be in the act of getting yourself off when thinking of these things. I doubt it would be a great idea to be thinking of these things, say, in the middle of math class.

Its pretty funny, there are times I'll have the desktop running and both laptops at the same time. My sex drive typically overloads anything I'm doing because I always end up looking at porn or playing with myself. Hell, I've even so easily distracted.

One time, I was editing a video that I'd made (I don't remember if I'd mentioned it but the washing machine one) and of course I started getting excited and decided to whip out the ol' toy. Is that strange, masturbating to a video of yourself? It wasn't that I was turned on by "me" it was what I was doing.

I must admit though, if I could clone myself and use my other "me" for sexual favors or helping me be 2 places at once - I'd do it in a heartbeat. Its not that it would be about me being with myself - it would be more about the me getting to be with someone that I'd created for my sexual pleasure. I'd be just as happy to make her look different. Oh, or maybe one of my girlfriends could clone herself too and we could just trade sometimes. There's at least 2 on the site that I'm on (www.realgirlsoncam.com) that I'd love to see or swap with. I'm sure there are more but wow Jencams and harmony Definitely yummy girls. I'd fuck them in a heartbeat.

Maybe I should just get me one of those "fucking machines". If you don't know what they are you can easily google them. Maybe I'll get some pictures and write another post and show you what I'm talking about. I have a couple of friends that have told me that they have one but its like that sybian thing. If I'm getting a fucking machine - by god - I'm getting a fucking machine. Like - I want to be bent over and rammed from behind or strapped to my back as it spreads my legs apart. Ok - I'm officially horny now.... I'm going to go play - I'll write back later.

Ok, this is my 3rd attempt posting something and everytime I click something it erases my stuf. I'll post again today, when I'm not so ticked off at thumblogger!!!! Sorry guys. I've got a few videos and pictures that need editing anyways. Its also such a pretty day outside that I might just be in the mood to take some more pictures too. Hopefully that will calm me and give you some new stuff too

Yeah, I know odd title huh! Well, l've been taking a break from school for a little bit to get accustomed to life in TX. Still, I don't want to get rusty. You see, I'm an art student. I've only had one art class - most have been english, math, etc. Still, I've been slacking. I've never been someone to draw and paint constantly. I will get the art bug in spurts though. Its like - I'll draw and paint about 3 things at the same time and once I'm done with all of that - I'm exhausted and won't touch a pencil for months. The more I draw - the better I am at it. Oh, and I get faster too.

That's where the 2 hours on an eye comes into play. I was looking thru a magazine the other night and there were some really hot ads for calvin Klien. It really inspired me to draw. I'm so out of practice though. It actually took me 2 hours to draw one eye. I'm pretty ocd when it comes to drawing. I can't stand for people to see my work until its finished because when I first start drawing - it doesn't look like its supposed to and people want to critique me. I don't mind being critiqued - thats all part of being an art student - but I don't want to be critiqued before I'm done.

My next ambition is that I would like to draw a few of my nude pictures and put them on my site. I've wanted to do that for a while but I'm so out of practice that I want to get warmed up first. <--- btw - if you have imput as to which picture you'd like for me to draw please leave a comment. I'd love some imput.

The other thing I've been kind of itching to do is some more artistic photos. Maybe with paint on my body or close ups of me touching tounges with another girl. I don't really know. Just something to express my sexual side in my art. I'm definitely not a hippy chick that's willing to die or starve for art - but I have realized that its a part of me. I can't help it. I've denied it for a long time and I'm really happier with myself when I'm creating something. Its almost like the satisfied feeling after an orgasm. Its very hard to explain but I'm sure you understand. I get the same feeling when I finish a game I've been playing nonstop.

At the moment, I've got so many unfinished things. I need to make a list. I've got sites that need to be finished building. I have pictures that need to be finished so they can be uploaded. Drawings unfinished, at least 3 games that I'm in the middle of. wow crazy huh. lol.

Well, I'm going to post a little bit of my picture. Not the whole thing though because again, I don't like for people to see my work until its done. I'll post again once its finished. Btw, this is the picture of the eye I was drawing. Its not done btw, I will be doing the hair in front of the eye - I'm just not ready for it yet.

Well, so far my day is a little crazy. First off, this blog thing looks like it can be as easy or as complicated as you want it to be. I had posted a blog with a little bit of my background and it just "poof" disappeared. lol

First off let me say that I'm not a stripper, never been a stripper. I haven't done porn though I do have a few videos on my site that I've made when I felt frisky. I'm just your average country girl from Nowhere, Alabama. If I had of been born in a large city or perhaps a different state - I would have been a wild child and probably would be in porn. Who knows. I've just naturally been curious about sex my whole life. I got into camming on a whim. I was playing around on xpeeps.com (its like myspace but for swingers) it was my ex's idea. He wasn't my ex at the time. We'd find a couple or a lucky guy to play around with on cam... Before I knew it I had a girl message me and let me know that she played on cam for a living.

So, I did a little research and came across camgirlshide.com which was nothing like it is now... its pretty useless now imo. I met some nice girls and chatted with some people. Finally after weighing my pros and cons. I settled on www.realgirlsoncam.com the webmaster was very helpful and professional. I figured, hey worse case scenario - I play on cam a bit and if it didn't end up legit - I'd never do it again. LOL my little life would never be the same.

Back when camgirlshide was really for camgirls and not the pointless crap it is now - the forums were full and each girl had her own listing where reviews were made. That was the big point about camgirlshide - it was great for guys to get the scoop on a girl. I remember when I was on it - I would be continually chatting with about 30 guys at one time. I'm a fast typer thank god - not sure how these girls that can barely type or that speak little english - how they managed to keep up. There were mornings that I'd wake up to 60 offline messages. Some of them were sooooooooo odd. lol I still have my fetish people and they're super fun but a lot of the guys from camgirlshide were "timewasters". Meaning that they had no intention of purchasing a show they just either wanted to hack you or see what you'd be willing to do or how long you'd chat. I was typically in a show constantly so really didn't have to worry about it too much. I loved what I did (still do) and refused any show that I didn't think I'd enjoy (still do).

I've done giant shows - where I use the camera to make me seem like I'm a giant - sooo fun lol. Painted my toes. Hiccup (I actually get them a lot so works out great). Of course, there's always the guys trying to watch you poo, pee do animal things - NEVER GONNA HAPPEN - Oh and the dom stuff wow!!! Guys torturing their balls. etc. I guess I'll go into more detail later. It was a very liberating, eye-opening experience.

Here I was this doe-eyed newbie to anything kinky. I mean sure I'd been with a girl before but it was a one time thing at that time and not with my preference of girl. Its almost like candy. You love jolly ranchers but its the only thing you've ever had. Next thing you know, someone's taking you to a candy store. You may not like all of the candy but wow - its so nice to try all of the neat new stuff. I love sex. I love orgasms. I'm still so giddy when I play. I'm still the kid in the candy store.

I swear every morning, I wake up thinking how lucky I am that I do, what I do. I look in the mirror and can't believe that guys are so into me and think I'm hot enough to spend money on to see. Its the best complement that anyone could ever give me.

To all of my fans - thank you. xoxox

You know, I'm not sure if other camgirls are like me and think like I do but I can only assume that they do. Other women for that matter too, that don't even cam probably have random thoughts and fantasies while having sex. I swear, sometimes my mind just runs away with me. There are times that I'll be in a show or maybe even masturbating alone and thinking about some of the most off the wall things that never would cross my mind normally or that I doubt I'll ever do. Is that all part of something being a "fantasy"? Perhaps if you're fantasizing about something you might one day do but you just haven't happened to do yet - its just forward thinking.

Like last night, I had a pretty neat show - it was with two guys. Basically, I had one guy want a show with another guy and me - kind of like an online mfm 3some. So, I basically messaged a few of my guys to see if they were interested and offered the 2nd guy a discount. (I've never had that kind of 3some - I've done fmf or fmfm) It was pretty fun. We did a conference with each other and I got to see both of them at the same time -VERY COOL.

So meanwhile, we're in our show. I'm watching two guys stroke their cocks. (I love watching guys stroke anyway.) My mind starts to wonder. When my mind starts to wonder, it becomes almost like a really vivid dream.

All of the sudden I'm at a sex party. Its outdoors and its like for pornstars or something and I'm one of the "party favors" I suppose. Me, along with about 6 other girls of all kinds, are wearing nothing but big, gaudy, gold jewelry and we're tied to different places. I was tied to the side of the house - hands in the air and tits to the wall. We're being served as entertainment for all of the pornstars. People just walk by and grab one of us and fuck us with no questions asked. People cheering and smiling in the background.

The two guys on cam are getting me so close to cumming - I'm so wet that my juices are running down my ass. I take the cam and move it down to my kitty for them to see how hot I am. My imagination going crazy and watching 2 guys play for me. I couldn't help it any more - I shoved the toy in faster, rubbed my clit and screamed so many obscenities - I was sure my neighbor would hear.... so I bit down on the pillow next to me and just rode the orgasm out. Whew. lol it was so fun.

Now, my mind doesn't wonder off all of the time. Sometimes my imagination just gets the best of me. I'm not a submissive girl at all. I think that's why I fantasized about it. I wouldn't let anyone do anything like that in real life but in this magical world of just carnal sex - I was really enjoying my submissive role. I'm sure there are guys out there that understand what I'm saying. Like, I wear my strapon a lot for guys that fantasize about sucking it for me or taking it in the ass by me... Next thing you know they're talking about licking the cum and having me make them suck a guy off for me. After the show they freak out and tell me how they'd never do that in real life and that it was just a fantasy. You know, I really do get it. I fantasize a lot about things that put in the situation - I doubt I'd do... but its still fun. I think the fantasy part of camming is what makes me love it so much.